The story

The doctors say I have this condition called "Pigmented Villonodular Synovitis" aka=PVNS. Here's some info on it: only surgery can completely remove it, it hurts a lot, it's never cancer, and once it's removed the recurrence rate is 48%. Synovial cells are supposed to be thin flat layers, but with this condition they become thick balls and lodge in joints and such, causing pain. Medical people call it a disease, I will always refuse to call it that, so it's a condition. I have had numerous surgeries for this, 3 shoulder, 1 knee, 2 feet, and I've been on pain meds for as long as I can remember. And I just had my 3rd shoulder surgery on June 19th, 2009. This has been going on for more than 10 years, and it is some form of pain almost everyday...Anyway...So there are the physical & medical facts...BUT I don't believe or accept any of that. Here is why...

I believe that God exists, Jesus lived, died, and rose again, and I believe the in the Holy Spirit. I also believe that God's power is in me and I can do all things through him, through his power. I believe that God has power that none of us can ever imagine. I believe that he has healing power. I believe that God can, will, and does heal people from sickness and disease.

I have been thinking a lot about creating a blog about my condition, I have been hesitating for whatever reason. Since PVNS is very rare, there are not many blogs or forums for people to talk about it on. This blog will be about healing. Be it physical or mental.

I believe that you will have what you speak. About a month or so ago I wrote down a confession. I printed this confession and read it many times throughout the day. I have a copy on my bathroom mirror, my desk, and my purse. Here is what I speak out about my healing:

• Psalm 103:2 – Let all that I am praise the Lord; may I never forget the good things he does for me. He forgives all my sins and heals all my disease.
• Isaiah 10:27 - And it shall come to pass in that day, that MY burden shall be taken away from off MY SHOULDER, and his yoke from off MY neck, and the yoke shall be destroyed because of the anointing.
• Isaiah 53:5 - But he was pierced for my rebellion, crushed for my sins. He was beaten so I could be whole. He was whipped so I could be healed.
• I'm not moved by what I feel. I'm not moved by what I see.
• My faith is not determined by pain.
• I am completely and totally healed of PVNS.
• My God has already met my needs, my healing; I am going to my healing.